As many of you know, I journal every morning. Nothing in this piece is typical “blog” material. Just thoughts from my heart that I thought I would share.
August 11, 2021
“Authentic spirituality confidently assumes that God is up to something good, going ahead of us, calling us, embracing us…” Donald McCullough
I am reminded once again the value of patience and the slow work of God. Tertullian calls impatience the “original sin.” I get it. For I find myself always desiring some kind of immediate benefit from my activities. I want what I want and I want it now. I fail to realize that I am already getting precisely what I need… right now. But is it rarely precisely what I want. Sometimes it is precisely what I don’t want, but even then, “God is up to something good…”, it’s just that I am not in a state of mind to see it.
I find this common in prayer, when God fails to “show up” and I feel dry with inclinations that I am wasting my time. But then who is this about? I am making it all about me and not about the Holy One. And that is my preferred state, is it not? To be more concerned about me than the slow, but essential, work of God. It is in these times that God may be doing his most powerful work in my life. It’s just that I need to take a step back… and wait, trusting on his ultimate goodness and wisdom.